GOODBYE 2013..WELCOME 2014..

It's been almost a week now..living in 2014..
I am glad cause I'm still breathing..
First week of 2014, not really great..hmm.. *sigh*
But I hope, it brings me happy ending..hahhaha

Year 2013..
Bring lots of things to be remembered..
I went through a lot..
But I'm glad I managed to go through it..
And of course, 2013, gave a great impact to my life ..
Starting from health, career, friendship an also relationship...
But today, I'm gonna let it all pass...

Year 2014..
I hope this year will bring me more laughter than tears..
A well grown career..
A great bond of friendship..
and also..
An ever lasting relationship...
Hahahhahaha.. peace !!

It is still not too late for me to wish "Happy New Year 2014"..
And I would like to express my gratitude towards all my friends in real n virtual world..
You guys mean so much to me..
Hope we are all achieving what we wish for in 2014.. <3

PS: I'm wearing extended hair..but looks real..hahahhah...can't wait to grow my hair again.. (^_^)

Poem : My Curse To You..

Just now I read a beautiful poem by a dear friend, Iulia Ghergei..
I always love her poems..makes me intoxicated ..hahhaha..
Btw, thanks Iulia for allowing me to share it here.. :D

"Looking at the ceiling
desperate for a muse
looking blunt at the darkness spread on my windows
I am
sadly to notice, still I am
that proof of your outrageous sin
that proof that you stepped on corpses with no shame
in your greed to fulfil your goal
I am and always will be the dust under your rug
the ghost to haunt you endlessly 
trust me
Now that I know how you mislead me
I am enraged
I am a dragon whose flame must disinfect itself
first and last
will burn you as hell consumed at once
Looking at the ceiling
desperate for a muse
I am sad"

The "X-Files" and "otaku" ..

Yesterday I felt my thigh so painful when I woke up in the morning..but I just ignored it..
I went to the office to meet a client..then I went back home cause I'm still on holiday..
My thigh became more painful afterwards..
Guess what ???
There's a big bruise at the back of my thigh..
I just don't know where did I get that bruise...
I asked my cousin to have a look at it..
She said the bruise looks like I was being beaten by someone..
But that's ridiculous..!!
I was home alone for God sake..
I don't want to think in depth about this case....
So I just put it in the "X-Files" category...aiyoo..hahhaha..
.............
My friend said to me " Find yourself an "otaku" guy.."
I don't know what is "otaku" guy..

But then I read the link shared..

http://funnymama.com/post/252998

"otaku" guy seems like a perfect match..
But nobody's perfect lohh...hahahah ^^
A special thanks to my friend for the suggestion..
Peace !! ^^

yeayyy!! Finally...

Finally... !!
I remembered the password of this blog..
It's been a long time since I last updated my post here..
Really miss my writings here..

There are lotsa things I'd like to write..
But not on this post..
Cause I need to catch up with my editing ..
But of course I'll share it next time..

I hope it's not too late for me to wish ..
" Merry Christmas" to all who are celebrating it..

Gotta go now..
Hope my editing will be finished in these 2 days..
So that I can continue writing in this blog..
Cia yiu Cia yiu.. !! XDD

The Saddest Heart.. T_T

Standing alone on the rooftop of the building really makes me feel at ease..

Don't worry I'm not gonna jump off the building..hahhah..

It's been a long time since I last been here..

Miss this place so much..

So many things happened lately..from the happiest to the saddest..all are in blend..

I guess today is the saddest day of my life..

I know it's gonna change my life forever..

Nobody can accept the fact..so am I..

But I just make myself calm as if I never heard a thing ..

I just walked a few blocks and end up up here..

The same place I've been months ago..

But the condition differed already...

Here still..I feel life is unfair..for a girl like me who always did my best to keep on surviving..

The happiness I felt months before already vanished in a blink of an eye..

So sad..nothing in the world can fix it..

Now I'm just hoping for a miracle..(but I guess there's none)..

And I'm gonna live my life to the full..while I still can..

And I'm gonna appreciate all the people surrounding me better..

There's a  phrase echoes on my mind now..it says..

EVEN THE CLEAR SKY CAN NEVER BRIGHTEN THE SADDEST HEART..

A LIFE NOTE FAREWELL..

Time is passing as it is running..

Without caring what it has left behind..

Moving towards an unidentified fate..

Without even letting me hugging my memories..

What a difficult thing is farewell..

 It stabbes my heart with a virtual dagger..

As the moments proceed with a rush.. 

Trying to keep me avoid from my past..

What the next day is going to bring me..

 I don’t know but I would like to know..

Whether it will be better or worse than yesterday..

Or the same loneliness..

This is not a farewell darling, it is a must..

Wipe the tears from your eyes..

 Everything in the life has an end..

THANK YOU ..

In a language learned..

When no one was listening..

I try my best to tell you how I feel..

Somehow I am sure and this I believe in..

This is real…

From my heart..

I sing to you..

And I´m hoping..

That you’ll understand what I’m trying to say...

Found a place inside of me..

And I’m grateful..

For each day…

A broken wing cannot stop me from flying..

I leave no footprints when you’re around...

“Know yourself” you said..

You made me so proud of what I found…

Oh my god..

I’m losing it..

I’m finally going out of it..

My senses tingle..

I can hardly breathe.. 

Oh my god..

I’m losing it..

I’m finally going out of it..

I feel my heart..

I’m suddenly alive!

Thank you..

Thank you for the world..

Thank you for the life you're making me see..

Inside of me...

The book is open now and the pen keeps on writing..

Story of my life, it starts right here...

Now I reach the stars..

Can grab them and hold them..

With no fear…

I am captivated..

Completely spellbound..

I have found my match...

And the blackbird has flown away..

The blackbird has left me for good...