NEVER GIVE UP..

Never give up..

that's what I always tell myself..

but sometimes I can't help falling..

Falling ..and falling..and falling.. over and over..

I'm not perfect..

Got lots of flaws in fact..

I do wanna be positive..really I do..

But sometimes, the surroundings didn't support me to be one..

In fact it makes me falling deeper..

My life is so hard..really hard..but I never regret it..

My life is mine..

Mine for the taking..

I didn't enjoy my life as what the girl of my age been doing..

I have to study hard and maintain excellent grade so that I don't lose my scholarship..

Apart from that I do part time jobs just to earn pocket money..

I have no time for myself..no time to pampered myself..but still I manage to smile and laugh at it..

People will not know what I've been through..they are not in the same shoes..

They will never know..

They will never understand..

Some people said that my heart is made of brick..cause I didn't give them positive response when they talked about love to me..

Some people said I just playing hard to get..

I don't mind though..but sorry..I'm not an actress ..playing such a role..

I am a normal girl..I do wanna be loved and loving...

I never denied the fact that I need someone ..

Even if I never said it out loud..

They don't know that I have to sacrifice my own feelings all this while..

Sometimes I felt really lonely..

But as for now I have to focus on my study..

That's my main objective..

And I'm trying to ignore my feeling right now..

It's sure hard..but I'm trying..

and I always believe that there's a sunshine beyond the dark clouds...(^_^)