Happy Mother's Day..

It's Mother's Day again..time passed so fast tho..it's been 4 years now..I celebrate this day without my mom around..but this year is kinda special..coz I got the chance to visit her ..

I still remembered the last conversations that we had before the incident that took her away from me forever..

Mom : Elis, go n get mommy's bracelet..
Me    : Here  mom..
Mom : Why don't you join us to the party dear..it won't bored you for B is there too..
Me    : No mom, I don't feel very well tonite..
Mom : Ok then..make sure you stay at home..don't go anywhere..
Me    : I promise to stay at home..don't worry mom..

And before she walked out of the door...

Mom : Elis, come here dear..muah..muah..
She gave me kissess on both my cheeks and hugged me tight..
Me    : Just go now mom, why suddenly you become this lovey dovey ..this is not so you..
Mom : Ok2..there won't be next time..take care dear..
Then she  waved at me and left..

That night, I went to a friend's house, partying...drowning in the influence of the so- called "life saver"..

Mom,
I'm sorry coz I lied to you that nite..
I was a spoil child back then..
If only I knew that would be our last day together..
I would have hugged n kissed you too..
If only I could go back in time..
I would appreciate n treasure you always..

Mom..
Since the day you left..
I am totally changed..
I am no longer a spoil child..
I don't waste my time hanging with the wrong friends..
I don't waste my life taking the so called "life saver"..
I am clean now..

Mom..
Now you can be proud of me..

Mom..
Here's for you..Happy Mother's Day..
I love you so much...
Rest in peace mom..