NO WORDS..

I think I hurt inside ..
I just wanna share this video..
No word can express what I feel right now except for the song..
Just listen to it..

BERIBU SESALAN

Ku susuri malam ini

Yang tidak berbintang sunyi sepi
Juga rembulan dah menghilang
Dalam kelam ku sendiri

Ku mencari hembus bayu
Yang selalu berbisik madah rindu
Kini membisu dalam sayu
Tidak ku temu suaramu

Kekasihku di jalanan yang berliku
Di saat ku perlukanmu
Tertutup jua segalanya terhadapmu
Di sini ku tersedu-sedu

Setelah cinta pergi
Ku mengusung duka ini diiringi
Kisah janji dimungkiri lagi

Kekasihku di jalanan yang berliku
Di saat ku perlukanmu
Tertutup jua segalanya terhadapmu
Di sini ku tersedu-sedu

Setelah cinta pergi
Ku mengusung duka ini
Diiringi

Kisah janji
Dimungkiri
Dimungkiri

Sia-sia ku
Mencintaimu
Setia padamu
Percayakanmu

Sebak dadaku
Retak hatiku
Luka jiwaku
Dihiris pilu

Sia-siaku
Mencintaimu
Setia padamu
Percayakanmu

Sebak dadaku
Retak hatiku
Luka jiwaku
Dihiris pilu

Beribu sesalanku...

GOODBYE..

I don't know where to express my sadness rite now..so it's better for me to write it in this blog..
I never expect this to happen..first time in my life being slapped by someone until my mouth bleeding..
Like some kinda abuse..
Is it wrong for me to start a new life by my own?
I know we are blood related..but do I have to stick with him for the rest of my life??!!
Does he have the rights to interfere in the way I live my life...
This is so unfair..!!
I maybe wrong cause I just walked away without saying goodbye..
I kept my distance for a while to make way for him to realize whatever wrong he did to me back in Canada..
I was hoping he will regret but my hope goes to waste..
He will never change..
Hope this is our last goodbye..and the slap is his last gift ..
I wish for him to vanish..stay away from my life forever....!!!!!!
I wish I never carried the same family name..
Go ahead and take all the things left by my belated mom and dad..!!
I don't need that..!! I can survive on my own..without you ..and your damn money!!
One thing for sure..don't messed with my life anymore..!!
I'm sick and tired of living in fear ..let me be free this time and forever..
Cause I need to have a life on my own..
I need a happy life in this new environment...
GOODBYE MY BROTHER...I never want to see you again...!!
This song is for you bro...KARMA..

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