I HAVE TO BE HONEST..

Today..I just don't know how I felt..all mixed up..
I received a dress n a ring ..
and yet I still feel something missing..
for a normal girl , she must be happy and overwhelm to received that kinda gift..
but me..hmm..I just don't know how I felt..
I felt indifferent..
I really felt guilty towards that guy..cause I don't love him in return..
I just can't force myself to love someone that I don't have sparks within..
I really don't mean to hurt his feeling by saying I can't love him back..
It's not my intention at all..for I know how he felt rite now..
I know exactly how it felt to be in love with someone who don't love u in return..
I really know it..It really hurts even if I didn't say it out loud..but it hurts so much..
That's why I don't feel at ease rite now coz I know someone's hurt because of me..
But what else can I say..I don't want to play with someone's heart..
Never in my life, to say that I'm in love with someone for I'm not.. 
For me love is very sacred..
You just can't play around with love..for it also involved others..n others' hearts too..
I have to admit that I'm a loyal type of girl..(promoting myself hahahah!!)
But I guess I made the rite decision tonite, cause I have to be honest to myself n him as well..
I have to stop blaming myself for this...(caiyo2 Elis!!)
I hope I did make the rite decision too..for God knows best..
But now, something pop up in my mind..
Is there anyone out there could love me like he did..??..
(ooopppsss..Elis stop that thinking..hahhah!!)
He sent this poem in my inbox just now...

I find my happiness in loving you.
Though my love is not returned,
I don't mind waiting.

The woods are a cathedral where I pray
For the beauty and grace
that lie within my heart.

You hold me and we kiss, and yet not yet
Is there the unity that love must crave.

You don't want me, not as I want you:
This truth is like a wreckage on my sea.

There's no one else I hunger for, nor touch
That makes me feel I must take off my skin;

And so I'll wait as years pile up like leaves,
And long with the lonely patience of the moon.

I'm not yet replying to that poem..hehehhe..got to think what I should write..hehhehe..

That's all 4 now I guess..