MY GUILT..

I don't know what went wrong with me tonight..
feeling empty..
completely empty..
completely blank..
My mind is wandering elsewhere..felt like something is missing..I'm searching for it..but to no avail..
Now I realised ...
It's the guilty I felt towards someone..


A few days back, a friend told me that he felt depressed about something..
I said I'm willing to lend my ears if he wanted to talk about it..
Then my line seemed to be in trouble..BAD CONNECTIONS...oh S**T !!
One hour after, I managed to be on9 again..
But he's nowhere around..pity him..I felt really at guilt at the time..
But I just let it go..cause I guess he'll be on9 afterwards..n by then I'll apologized..


Two days passed, still no news from him, not on9 either..so I sent him msgs..
I don't know whether he read on that or not...cause up to now..
he's still in silent mode..
I caught him on9 once..but when I'm on9, he just logged out..as if he's running away from me..
Is it just my feeling??..or..He did want to avoid me.??
Now my heads are full with unanswered questions...


This burdened me a lot..for I'm not used to be treated by him this way before..
My guilt already felt at maximum voltage..
I really felt uncomfortable about it..
But what more can I do..


So now I'll just have to wait..n wait...n wait..n wait...n hope..n hope...n hope..n hope..
that he'll be normal again towards me...huhuhu..


And to that friend of mine, I apologized for my wrongdoing....hope you can give response to me afterwards..


Let me just soothe my feeling with this song..SENYUM (SMILE)..by Najwa n Malique :

" Senyum..tak perlu kata apa-apa.." meaning " Smile..you don't have to say anything.."






PS : Forgive me friend for not being there when you need me the most..